Life

Here it is.  Another Monday.  I should be doing something.  Maybe I will later, but for now, I write.

Much has happened.  Nothing has happened.  I know, I'm being vague but that is just how I feel lately.  I feel very out of sorts.

Many people I know are pregnant, having babies, getting married, or just in a new relationship.  Its the feeling of being alone in a crowded room. I feel like I am failing at something...even though I am not.  Sure feels like it too.

Becoming a mom has been my life dream since I was six.  So being thirty and no closer to that than I was then. It depresses me.  *sigh*

On a upper note, Saturday night I spent a night out with my friend Nikki.  Unfortunately she had to leave early.  I stuck around for a couple more hours with my friend Sansa and her sister in law whose name I can't remember.  She was a very nice girl.  Had fun chatting with her.

Currently I am seeing no one.  Seems like the guys I have gone out with are just interested in one thing.  Yeah that's great and all but I am looking for a bit more than that.  A lot more than just that.  Just ready to give up on the dating scene and just be for a while.

No matter how lonely you get or how many birth announcements you receive, the trick is not to get frightened. There's nothing wrong with being alone.

Wendy Wasserstein (1950 - 2005), Isn't It Romantic, 1983

Let the day bring something good, certainly couldn't hurt right..