here we go again...

Uncle Kracker Livin' the Dream

Once again I am single.  In this case, its not so bad.  No broken heart, no hopes and dreams dashed, nada.  As sweet a person as Justin was, we just viewed what was important differently.  I figured hanging out, spending time together was important.  Him, sex.  Sure I enjoy it, but really? Thats all that seemed to be on his mind.  I know I know, cliche right?  But I want more out of a relationship than just physicality.  I want that warm fuzzy feeling, that feeling that you know its just right.  Truthfully, I never had that with him.  He was a stepping stone back out into the dating pool.  He showed me that I am not fully ready for a serious relationship right now.  My wounds were still healing.  And to some extent, they still are.  I will treasure the fun I had with him.  I also know more about myself.  Like, tho I enjoy sex, I am not addicted to it.  When the feelings are right, I will know.  I have also come to know that I need a bit more God in my life.  I know this now.  Yes I have my family and my friends but they can't always be there for me when I need them.  With God, He is always there.  So I've started reading my Bible more.  Whether it be my actual book or my kindle version.  I know I need to find someone who understands my wants, needs.  Who understands that I choose to be here in this little town I grew up in, be around people that I know and love, and I will leave when I am fully ready, not before. 

Anyhow, this is the lastest with me.  Not much else.  Just work.  I have good faith that when I am truely ready,the right man will come along and out of the blue and it will be just what was meant for me. :)