30: month one

It has been almost one month since I turned the dirty 30 as people say.  This Saturday my dear friend Erin is getting married and I am still dateless for the celebration.  Its looking more and more like I might be taking my mother to the wedding.  *sigh*  Unless I man up and just ask someone.  Well one someone in particular.  I'm really considering my friend John.  He's funny, a blast to hang out with, and pretty easy on the eyes. *insert chuckle here*  Sadly I don't know why I'm so afraid to ask him.  He's a great person, even if he couldn't go, I can say I tried right?  Then I'm also back at square one... What to do what to do....  Tho this is to be a happy time, I'm a bit sad...I kinda wish it was me... I'd love to be getting married, starting my family, a new life with my husband...but alas it is not in my cards for the time being.  I will put on my happy face, celebrate with the happy newlyweds, and toast to new beginnings!