Uncle Kracker Livin' the Dream
Once again I am single. In this case, its not so bad. No broken heart, no hopes and dreams dashed, nada. As sweet a person as Justin was, we just viewed what was important differently. I figured hanging out, spending time together was important. Him, sex. Sure I enjoy it, but really? Thats all that seemed to be on his mind. I know I know, cliche right? But I want more out of a relationship than just physicality. I want that warm fuzzy feeling, that feeling that you know its just right. Truthfully, I never had that with him. He was a stepping stone back out into the dating pool. He showed me that I am not fully ready for a serious relationship right now. My wounds were still healing. And to some extent, they still are. I will treasure the fun I had with him. I also know more about myself. Like, tho I enjoy sex, I am not addicted to it. When the feelings are right, I will know. I have also come to know that I need a bit more God in my life. I know this now. Yes I have my family and my friends but they can't always be there for me when I need them. With God, He is always there. So I've started reading my Bible more. Whether it be my actual book or my kindle version. I know I need to find someone who understands my wants, needs. Who understands that I choose to be here in this little town I grew up in, be around people that I know and love, and I will leave when I am fully ready, not before.
Anyhow, this is the lastest with me. Not much else. Just work. I have good faith that when I am truely ready,the right man will come along and out of the blue and it will be just what was meant for me. :)
