As I read my sister's blog, I am saddened with the uncertainty of her working future. She is one of the strongest women I know. She's a hero to me, the type of person I wouldn't mind being like. I wish that there was something I could do to help her out but her being in Portland and myself being here, well, makes that rather difficult...and my finances are a little strapped currently. My heart and prayers go out to her and her little family that she receives a holiday miracle. Love you sis..
She shared some memories of our childhood, fond memories that I had completely forgotten about. The winter nights we spent up at Topaz with our grandparents. I loved those times. I learned so much from the years we spent there growing up. One being the importance of sunscreen..I received the worst sunburn of my life there. Also the major importance of wearing helmets. Cheryl and I were cruising around the countryside, and we ended up on a rode a little too narrow for our Yamaha Moto4, and down this hill we went. As usual I end up with just scrapes and Cher is the one bleeding. How I managed with no bleeding wounds is still beyond me. Well we manage to walk back to the house and get grandpa and grandma and we get the 4 wheeler back to the property, no worse for wear. I think it fared better than we did. Remember sis?
There was the one Christmas that was the last time my Gramma Jeanne came down. It was wonderful to have her visit. At 7, she was the coolest gramma in the world. Learning more about her over the years as I became an adult myself, she still is an amazing woman. But that's another blog. I want to tell this story but as per usual, I'm not sure how to start it. So I'll just start with that day. It was December 26th. Mom, Cheryl, and I were taking my grandma to the airport so she could fly back to Seattle. Unfortunately the 3 of us didn't make it. (Gramma did, my uncle and aunt got her to the airport.) Right outside of town on McLeod Hill, mom rolled the van we were in. Mom was reaching for something on the dash (yes, she was driving) and drifted onto to shoulder, she over corrected, once, twice hitting that soft gravel yet again but this time it sent the van rolling. We landed tire-side down. It was a miracle that the swerving didn't happen seconds later, because coming up the other side was a hay truck. We would've been mere memories in the lives of the people who knew and loved us. And I was really lucky to walk away with nothing more than seat belt burns. If the rolling had taken place any sooner, I wouldn't be who I am, because I had just sat back down literally seconds before the van ended up upside down. That was almost 22 years ago now.
Good memories of the holidays always included being around family, my grampa in particular, just because I loved (and still do) him so. The first Christmas without him was tough on all of us. He was such a integral part of the festivities, that we were almost lost with out him. He had passed the carving of the ham or turkey on to dad long before but it was his job, as patriarch of the family, to slice the holiday pies. I still think it should be his job, but he is no longer here so that had to be passed to someone. We all take turns.
It brings to mind the Christmas Cheryl fed our old lab Sparkie pecan pie off our dad's china and our grandmother's silver. I did get a picture, tho when I took it I was afraid that it wasn't going to come out since I was laughing so hard. Man, gramma and mom were very very angry! The rest of our family laughed with us, but not those two! Mom laughs about it now, for it is a fond Christmas memory since the dog is no longer with us either..
This holiday is the start of something new too. Since the breakup, I have found someone new. Justin. He's absolutely amazing. Not that Tim wasn't, he was just different. He treats me like I'm something utterly special. I know, I know, cheesy to say, and I am special. Its just nice to be shown so, you know? I know a person can't complete me but I feel great when we are together. He makes me smile just thinking about him.. Like now. (:
If I don't write before the 25th, Merry Christmas to you all. I treasure you in ways that I cannot explain. Thank you for being my friends, my family, my life!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Holiday Season yet again...
Ahh tis the Christmas season once again. You can feel it in the are and see it in the streets no matter where you are. The only thing I feel is missing is some snow. Truely it doesn't feel like Christmas without a little snow on the ground. Not asking for a lot, just a few inches so Bailey and I can play in it. :)
This is also a tough time of year for many people, myself included. People losing homes, losing jobs, losing family...sad anytime of year, but doubly so during this time of year... This time of year is supposed to be joyous, not sad.
Today I found out from my dear friend and adopted sister April, that a dear friend of the family's had passed away over the night. Bob was a dear and funny man..lived a good life, but sadly was doing rather poorly the last few months. Sad to see him go but I know he is in a better place and no longer in any pain. Rest in Peace Mr. Matheus, you will be sorely missed...
In other news around the way, my personal life seems to be going fairly well. I was sick a couple weeks ago with a nasty 24 hour flu bug that was going around. I literally wanted to die. I hadn't had the flu since probly around 10 or more years ago. Well, Justin came out after he got off work Saturday and brought me gatorade and kept me company for a couple hours. He didn't have to do any of that but I really appreciated it. Unfortunatly he got sick too...on sunday.. It hit him about as long after as it did me. Several people got sick that weekend, including my dad. Was not a good weekend to know this girl's family and friends...Everyone is now better and no longer sick. :)
I am all but done with my Christmas shopping, now comes the fun part of the whole holiday season...wrapping! hahahahahahaha!!!
This is also a tough time of year for many people, myself included. People losing homes, losing jobs, losing family...sad anytime of year, but doubly so during this time of year... This time of year is supposed to be joyous, not sad.
Today I found out from my dear friend and adopted sister April, that a dear friend of the family's had passed away over the night. Bob was a dear and funny man..lived a good life, but sadly was doing rather poorly the last few months. Sad to see him go but I know he is in a better place and no longer in any pain. Rest in Peace Mr. Matheus, you will be sorely missed...
In other news around the way, my personal life seems to be going fairly well. I was sick a couple weeks ago with a nasty 24 hour flu bug that was going around. I literally wanted to die. I hadn't had the flu since probly around 10 or more years ago. Well, Justin came out after he got off work Saturday and brought me gatorade and kept me company for a couple hours. He didn't have to do any of that but I really appreciated it. Unfortunatly he got sick too...on sunday.. It hit him about as long after as it did me. Several people got sick that weekend, including my dad. Was not a good weekend to know this girl's family and friends...Everyone is now better and no longer sick. :)
I am all but done with my Christmas shopping, now comes the fun part of the whole holiday season...wrapping! hahahahahahaha!!!
Friday, November 25, 2011
Fall news, winter dreaming
Thanksgiving this year was a very pleasent experience. Dad and I had it with Sherry and her family. Lots of food, lots of laughs! Almost like the ones we used to have as I was growing up. Ahh childhood, when times were relativly simpler. What I mean by this is that when we are kids, it was tough being stuck at the kiddie table, not being able to help in a way that you wanted to, those kinds of things. Now, more responsibility, bills, work, families of our own, and the like. Tho I do long for simpler times, I really wouldn't trade how my life is now. I have friends that I love, family that I actually enjoy spending time with, and a new man in my life.
Its been almost 10 days since Justin and I have seen each other. Thats ok tho. It will make the next time we see each other much more special. :) Which is actually this Sunday. So I am very excited!
Today, my ex Tim came to the store with a piece of pipe from his furnace. Dang, really wished I'd gotten a picture of this pipe...rusted out. Explains a lot of the issues he's had with the thing. I feel for the guy cuz its his only source of heat and Megan is going to be there tomorrow. Good thing he has the stove now in the shop so hopefully he'll have something to keep warm. Sheesh... This pipe had to have been original to the mobile.
The weather lately has been that of fall. Its the end of November.. Come on! I want winter already!! Bring me snow! I want to play in that cold fun white stuff!!
Its been almost 10 days since Justin and I have seen each other. Thats ok tho. It will make the next time we see each other much more special. :) Which is actually this Sunday. So I am very excited!
Today, my ex Tim came to the store with a piece of pipe from his furnace. Dang, really wished I'd gotten a picture of this pipe...rusted out. Explains a lot of the issues he's had with the thing. I feel for the guy cuz its his only source of heat and Megan is going to be there tomorrow. Good thing he has the stove now in the shop so hopefully he'll have something to keep warm. Sheesh... This pipe had to have been original to the mobile.
The weather lately has been that of fall. Its the end of November.. Come on! I want winter already!! Bring me snow! I want to play in that cold fun white stuff!!
Friday, November 18, 2011
Stepping out back into the world!
Well, it has been an interesting week!!
First off, I rejoined the dating world with my first date in 4 years on Sunday. Date turned out wonderfully! I was so incredibly nervous, but as it turned out, there really was no need! Justin is a one of a kind guy. Treated me like a princess. He picked me up, opened doors, made me laugh, and listened to me as I babbled! Lol! We spent just hours talking and laughing. We had made plans to go out again when we both weren’t busy.
Now onto Thursday. Justin caught me off guard a bit by asking me what I was doing that night. Was kinda weird since I figured that since we were both busy for about a week that we wouldn't see each other till after Thanksgiving. Well he told me he had traded his Sunday/Monday days off so he could have Thursday. We had our second date.
And it too was wonderful. He met my mom and the three of us had dinner then we came back to my place. We spent the next few hours just hanging out, cuddling and talking. It was a wonderful time.
He is an amazing person who treats me so incredibly well! I had almost forgotten what it was like to be truly wanted by another person!
Now something funny..we had been talking of our exes, yeah I know, not an extremely great choice of topics but it did come up. Then the most random of things happened today. Tim texted me. First communication we'd had in almost 2 months. It was all innocent and what not, asking me about stove pipe. (he's installing a stove in his shop.) Then he came in and for me, it was kinda awkward...we hadn't seen each other in 2 months, then he followed me down an aisle to where I was showing a customer that we both know well if we had something that was supposed to have been ordered for him. He then came back later in the day, with Megan. It was nice to see her, and him too to a degree. I was wondering how things would be since we'd split. Glad it went off well enough.
Ahh, but still the best part of my day was getting to talk to Justin... he just makes me feel completely, utterly happy!! :)
First off, I rejoined the dating world with my first date in 4 years on Sunday. Date turned out wonderfully! I was so incredibly nervous, but as it turned out, there really was no need! Justin is a one of a kind guy. Treated me like a princess. He picked me up, opened doors, made me laugh, and listened to me as I babbled! Lol! We spent just hours talking and laughing. We had made plans to go out again when we both weren’t busy.
Now onto Thursday. Justin caught me off guard a bit by asking me what I was doing that night. Was kinda weird since I figured that since we were both busy for about a week that we wouldn't see each other till after Thanksgiving. Well he told me he had traded his Sunday/Monday days off so he could have Thursday. We had our second date.
And it too was wonderful. He met my mom and the three of us had dinner then we came back to my place. We spent the next few hours just hanging out, cuddling and talking. It was a wonderful time.
He is an amazing person who treats me so incredibly well! I had almost forgotten what it was like to be truly wanted by another person!
Now something funny..we had been talking of our exes, yeah I know, not an extremely great choice of topics but it did come up. Then the most random of things happened today. Tim texted me. First communication we'd had in almost 2 months. It was all innocent and what not, asking me about stove pipe. (he's installing a stove in his shop.) Then he came in and for me, it was kinda awkward...we hadn't seen each other in 2 months, then he followed me down an aisle to where I was showing a customer that we both know well if we had something that was supposed to have been ordered for him. He then came back later in the day, with Megan. It was nice to see her, and him too to a degree. I was wondering how things would be since we'd split. Glad it went off well enough.
Ahh, but still the best part of my day was getting to talk to Justin... he just makes me feel completely, utterly happy!! :)
Monday, October 31, 2011
Nevada Day 2011
Once again, the true Nevada Day has rolled upon us once again. In honor, I have colored part of my hair blue, because of the state flag. Could've gone with silver but that would've been very harsh on my hair, not to mention very permanent...
It irritates me, 3rd generation native Nevadan, that our state's birthday has been trivialized to a mere friday holiday.. Growing up in the Silver State, it was fun to be one of the very, very few states that still celebrates its statehood. I remember going to Carson City with my grandparents and sister Cheryl to be in the parade with the POWs and waving to the crowds as many stood and slauted the soldiers from WWII. Made me so proud. Now as an adult, things have changed. State Legislature changed it to make it a three-day weekend. I didn't always get a three-day weekend. If October 31st landed on a Monday or a Friday, we were very happy! Saturday or Sunday, we were sad, but we sucked it up.
Nevada Day always brings up many fond memories of spending the day with Grampa and Grandma, and yes, even my sister. She and I didn't always get along but for that day, we put aside our differences for a couple hours. She has written a couple of blogs that made me want to cry. She can put memories into a detail that I can't. I could tell you the memory and paint you a picture by telling you, but its harder for me to put them into words onto the proverbial paper.
After my grandpa passed away I wrote a poem...I wish I knew where I'd put it. I believe its on my other computer, I'd have to look. Maybe Cheryl still has it...
It irritates me, 3rd generation native Nevadan, that our state's birthday has been trivialized to a mere friday holiday.. Growing up in the Silver State, it was fun to be one of the very, very few states that still celebrates its statehood. I remember going to Carson City with my grandparents and sister Cheryl to be in the parade with the POWs and waving to the crowds as many stood and slauted the soldiers from WWII. Made me so proud. Now as an adult, things have changed. State Legislature changed it to make it a three-day weekend. I didn't always get a three-day weekend. If October 31st landed on a Monday or a Friday, we were very happy! Saturday or Sunday, we were sad, but we sucked it up.
Nevada Day always brings up many fond memories of spending the day with Grampa and Grandma, and yes, even my sister. She and I didn't always get along but for that day, we put aside our differences for a couple hours. She has written a couple of blogs that made me want to cry. She can put memories into a detail that I can't. I could tell you the memory and paint you a picture by telling you, but its harder for me to put them into words onto the proverbial paper.
After my grandpa passed away I wrote a poem...I wish I knew where I'd put it. I believe its on my other computer, I'd have to look. Maybe Cheryl still has it...
Monday, October 3, 2011
Vacation
Well day 1 of my vacation is coming to a close and here I am writing. Thoughts of things that have transpired in the last month of my life...newly single, loss of my little furry friend, new interest for my personal life...
But those are topics of another blog..here is about vacation. This is the first vacation I've had in over a year. I'm at my old stomping grounds of Susanville, CA. Along with me is my dear friend Jennifer. She's been halfway across the globe twice but never to northern California. I chuckle at it. After coming in and getting a quick tour, she's impressed. She sees why I love it here. If I had to pick a place outside of Nevada to live, it would be here. I love the scenery, the clean air, the nature! The only thing that would suck would be being miserable when the pines pollinate in the spring.
I am a bit sad to be here too. Because right now, there is someone that is back at home who has thoroughly invaded many of my waking thoughts. He is a wonderful guy who makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me feel like when we're talking, that I'm the most important person. He and I have shared many conversations and I've had fun doing so. He's a fairly recent addition to my circle of friends but he is a dear one now.
Well since not much else has been going on today, I'll end it here with the hope that when I return home, I can get things figured with him and in life in general! :)
But those are topics of another blog..here is about vacation. This is the first vacation I've had in over a year. I'm at my old stomping grounds of Susanville, CA. Along with me is my dear friend Jennifer. She's been halfway across the globe twice but never to northern California. I chuckle at it. After coming in and getting a quick tour, she's impressed. She sees why I love it here. If I had to pick a place outside of Nevada to live, it would be here. I love the scenery, the clean air, the nature! The only thing that would suck would be being miserable when the pines pollinate in the spring.
I am a bit sad to be here too. Because right now, there is someone that is back at home who has thoroughly invaded many of my waking thoughts. He is a wonderful guy who makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me feel like when we're talking, that I'm the most important person. He and I have shared many conversations and I've had fun doing so. He's a fairly recent addition to my circle of friends but he is a dear one now.
Well since not much else has been going on today, I'll end it here with the hope that when I return home, I can get things figured with him and in life in general! :)
Thursday, September 8, 2011
New Beginnings
Well I know I haven't posted anything in a while but I'm here to remedy that now.
Sunday marked a new chapter in my life. My boyfriend of 4 years and I broke up. No worries about me being depressed about it though my dear friends! We did so amicably! We both saw our lives differently. I want kids one day, he doesn't want anymore. He and I have agreed to remain friends. After 4 years, I can't not see him in my life in some fashion. He told me I was strong, he also wishes me the best and hopes I find the one I am looking for. And I wish him the same, if he chooses so.
Tho it is different being single once again, I'm not sure what to think. Four years is a long time to be with someone and then be "alone". Tho I am not actually alone. I have many friends surrounding me! I have my friend Jackie, a single gal like myself! Then there's my sissy Jennifer and hubby Aaron. They have been wonderful and sooo sooo supportive. My friends Melissa, Amy, Erin, and Melissa have also been wonderful supports. When I was down, I could turn to any one of these people and I could walk away feeling so much better about myself, maybe not what was going on in my life but certainly knowing I have such a support group to help me out!
At dinner tonight with my other friend Jen and her hubby Leroy, a gal that works at the China Chef made the comment that we need to find me a "lovey lover"! Cuz even she noticed he wasn't that touchy-feely. I loved it!! It was sooo funny. She also was teasing about "pimping me out" and "speed dating" at her place! I told her we defiantly need to hang out soon! I love Krista!!
Also, within the last week and a half, my dear kitty Mac, has gone missing...I'm afraid I will never see her again for I've heard coyotes and the terrible dream I had last week. At present time, I have no new plans of adopting another feline friend. I just can't do it...losing 2 of them in less than a year is just too too much for me to bear...I love them too much to chance another loss. I will stick with my lovey mutt Bailey and just deal with mousey traps.
Sunday marked a new chapter in my life. My boyfriend of 4 years and I broke up. No worries about me being depressed about it though my dear friends! We did so amicably! We both saw our lives differently. I want kids one day, he doesn't want anymore. He and I have agreed to remain friends. After 4 years, I can't not see him in my life in some fashion. He told me I was strong, he also wishes me the best and hopes I find the one I am looking for. And I wish him the same, if he chooses so.
Tho it is different being single once again, I'm not sure what to think. Four years is a long time to be with someone and then be "alone". Tho I am not actually alone. I have many friends surrounding me! I have my friend Jackie, a single gal like myself! Then there's my sissy Jennifer and hubby Aaron. They have been wonderful and sooo sooo supportive. My friends Melissa, Amy, Erin, and Melissa have also been wonderful supports. When I was down, I could turn to any one of these people and I could walk away feeling so much better about myself, maybe not what was going on in my life but certainly knowing I have such a support group to help me out!
At dinner tonight with my other friend Jen and her hubby Leroy, a gal that works at the China Chef made the comment that we need to find me a "lovey lover"! Cuz even she noticed he wasn't that touchy-feely. I loved it!! It was sooo funny. She also was teasing about "pimping me out" and "speed dating" at her place! I told her we defiantly need to hang out soon! I love Krista!!
Also, within the last week and a half, my dear kitty Mac, has gone missing...I'm afraid I will never see her again for I've heard coyotes and the terrible dream I had last week. At present time, I have no new plans of adopting another feline friend. I just can't do it...losing 2 of them in less than a year is just too too much for me to bear...I love them too much to chance another loss. I will stick with my lovey mutt Bailey and just deal with mousey traps.
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